Hello you larvley lot!

I’m currently tucked away on the sofa, my doggo by my side. Writing this on the day of posting (oops) but it’s a new week and I’m feeling much more refreshed and ready to get shit done. So saying that I want to give you a little life update. We all know my ‘If We Were Having Coffee Posts’. Don’t worry, they aren’t gone forever. But I just wanted to try something new and talk about life lately. A little bit more in depth, a little bit more personal, but still as cosy and conversational as ever.

life update

Life update
I’m having a complex right now…

As September is nearing I have this weird hastened feeling. Like somethings coming, but its not. And I’ve worked out its because September = school, and as I’m not off to school it’s leaving me in this ambiguous state. Uni definitely isn’t for me, but it seems weird that I’m going through a side road and I’m bound to hit about 1000 pot holes on the way. Bit of country road humor for you there.

And it leads onto another predicament. Where I’m not entirely sure about my career. It’s kind of a ‘not an oh shit what am I doing but an oh shit what am I doing’ predicament. I’ve never had one dream job, and I’ve focused more on having a dream lifestyle. Being able to buy a house, live comfortably, the usual sort of life goals. But especially since the old chronic illness has sprung upon me I’ve known being freelance and working for myself is the end goal. It’s just what’s best for me, being able to manage myself. But it’s still got to be something that motivates me. Whether it be freelance blogging? Marketing? Bit of everything? Who knows. But I’ll work it out, it’s just a bit weird right now.

I’m finally feeling a bit more inspired…

Autumn is on the horizon, and if you follow me on Twitter or Instagram, you’ll know I’ve already screamed about how excited I am a couple hundred times. But I’m excited for the cosy jumpers, warm drinks, long walks and more than most, I’m feeling so much more inspired by it. I just want to grab my camera and constantly create content, I’m so in my element right now. Maybe it’s the Cotswold girl in me. But I’ve also had a massive brain storming session and realised I’m not completely creating content I enjoy creating? I just feel like it’s all rushed. So I’m changing that up. And it’s so refreshing to want to work hard and make content I want to create, and not worry about the numbers and the trends. I feel like I’ve been talking a lot about my blog and my content, but hey we’ve all got to toot out own horn when we’re excited. *Toot toot*.

So, grief sucks…

I won’t talk too much on this. But I sadly lost a family member the other week, and I’m still in a space where I’m not sure how to feel. It wasn’t sudden, but this is the first family member I’ve lost really. And I would say I’m mature enough to understand and accept the situation, but then I also find myself very drunk and very vulnerable. So it’s still a process, and we all cope in our own ways. But yeah, it’s not great.

I think I’ve found the bargain of the month and the hair moot…

I like to think of myself as a bargain oracle. Mainly because I just hate spending money. Give me alll the dupes and look a-likes. And if you saw my Twitter you would’ve probably seen me raving about this. But I got myself my autumn coat for a whopping £12.99. I know, I know. I wasn’t a dupe but I have a feeling it’s going to be an autumn staple for many people. You’ll see the photos soon enough, I’m trying to be patient for autumn.

This girl also needs her mane cutting. Badly. I love my long hair but it’s getting a bit boring, and annoying. So I’m having a bit of a debate with myself, which has been going on for a matter of months now. And I don’t know whether I want to keep it long, cut it short. And if so how short. Do I style it? I just don’t know. I know hair isn’t that big of a deal, but it’s a big comfort zone for me. And I know it all grows back and all that I’d just like to be 100% certain before I cough up 5o quid for a chop.

I could blab on forever, but that’s enough for one Monday. Have a lovely day!

Em x


  1. Macey Gloria
    20/08/2018 / 3:45 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear that you lost someone, I’ve said a little prayer for you xx. I feel like I’m on the verge of some major blogging inspiration and creativity, but I feel a bit stifled in every way because Autumn is a while away here in California. August-September is always the weirdest time of year for me, I struggle with thriving because it’s not the summer holidays nor is it autumn. Probably just me, but those two seasons are happy times for me & being in between them isn’t ideal haha x

    • emibeccamarven
      21/08/2018 / 10:44 am

      Aww thank you! x I feel this 100%, it’s neither one extreme or the other. But there’s only so many transitional content pieces you can do? I’m definitely holding back and not going full out autumn just yet! xx

    • emibeccamarven
      21/08/2018 / 10:39 am

      Oh bless you, thank you. That’s a good idea, I might do a little bit at a time! xx

  2. 21/08/2018 / 2:54 am

    My condolences for your loss 🙁 Thanks for sharing, especially because I know the topics can be hard to share or express your thoughts on. I’m excited for autumn as well. Your photos are gorg! The black & white just adds to it! 👌👌

    • emibeccamarven
      21/08/2018 / 10:34 am

      Oh thank you lovely! It means a lot. Autumn is my favourite month I’m so ready, aww thank you! x

    • emibeccamarven
      21/08/2018 / 12:43 pm

      Aww thank you! xx

  3. Amy
    22/08/2018 / 5:22 pm

    I’ve just realised that I wrote a comment yesterday for this post and it hasn’t published!! Anyway… I LOVED this post (as you probably noticed when I decided to do my own!!) and I’m so glad you’re feeling inspired with your blog! You’re doing so well with it and your Instagram is definitely goals so I’m really excited to see what more is to come! I also understand how you’re feeling after losing someone, it is so so difficult but it does get easier, and if you ever need a chat, you know I’m always here! Hope you’re ok Em!

    Amy // http://www.livingwithme.blog

    • emibeccamarven
      23/08/2018 / 11:52 am

      Oh bless you its okay! But thank you sooo much, it means the world to me! Much love gal xx

  4. 23/08/2018 / 2:27 pm

    Sorry to hear about your loss, it’s never easy on anyone. I hope you’re okay and take the time to grieve in your own way xx

    • emibeccamarven
      24/08/2018 / 11:03 am

      Thank you lovely xx

  5. 23/08/2018 / 9:55 pm

    Totally know what you mean when you say you feel like you rush your content sometimes! I often feel like a ‘bad’ blogger for missing a week or two of posting but I’m really trying not to post for the sake of posting anymore and create content that I’m 100% happy with! Also so sorry to hear you lost someone special, my thoughts are with you lovely xx

    • emibeccamarven
      24/08/2018 / 11:10 am

      Yessss exactly! Aww thank you lovely xx

    • emibeccamarven
      29/08/2018 / 1:00 pm

      Awww thank you lovely xxx

  6. Hayley Williams
    27/08/2018 / 1:46 pm

    Sorry to hear of your family member Emily. There’s no real rush to figure out your career so try not to let that get you down xx

    • emibeccamarven
      29/08/2018 / 1:00 pm

      oh bless you thank you! xx

  7. 28/08/2018 / 3:21 pm

    I love chatty posts like this, and your pictures looks great! I’m sorry to hear about your loss, it takes a while to come to terms with it all but time is the best healer. Lots of love xx

    • emibeccamarven
      29/08/2018 / 1:01 pm

      Aww thank you! Yes I 100% agree, time is everything. Thank you lovely xx

  8. foreverseptember1
    28/08/2018 / 7:10 pm

    I’ve just come across your blog and I wanna say how gorgeous you and your photos are! I loved this post and I totally get what you mean about this time of year and having that feeling of having something to go back to. Although I do have uni in September haha!

    Lucy | Forever September

    • emibeccamarven
      29/08/2018 / 1:02 pm

      Aww thank you so much! That means the world. And I know it’s weird isn’t it! x

  9. 04/09/2018 / 9:09 am

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your family member!

    I get what you mean with the hair, I’ve kind of made a “pact” with myself that whenever I am really sick of my long hair – I need to be really sick of it though – that I’m just going to cut it super short, like a really really short bob just to see what that’s like!


    • Emilybecca
      05/09/2018 / 6:58 pm

      Yesss exactkly! x

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